Dream

Hi mr. Bloggie!! I miss you so mucha! 

Its been a while we havent meet each other. 2012. *First of all, I wanna talk about my dream last nite. I must type it now like here because I am surprised by the dream! and a bit thrill today. It is about just married which never cross my mind recently. This is hillarious. Let me tell the trailer of it okay? Welcome to my dream world story. In a one fine day, I was in the church with white dress *not sure sexy or not, as I remembered, humble dress. Someone standing next to me. Wondering what was going on, to my surprised, I am standing in front of the altar, the wedding ceremony was just ended. I mean I was married to a guy that I liked before, my super fantastic crush who is in love with God "now Im not sure lar him, still actually lar I guess coz I saw..." and he was standing just right behind me. Omgee... am so nervous and excited. How sweet is the feeling ♥♥♥. For me, Its like a real marriage, with priest at our back? Coz the mass ended a while ago. Hahaha.. Realized that we married, and we were in the altar, I asked the crowd to take picture of both of us, none of them bother me. Why?!! I am bit frustrated. I gave them the camera to take my photo. Hahaha.. Then married? I guess.

All of sudden, the situation changed~ just a blink of eyes, We were just friend again, not more than that. Its like he didnt care about me, so I just assumed that I was just a friend to him. Can you imagine how surprised am I?! Situation changed 180º but the feeling to get married in the alter was a great experience! I do really wanna get married in church with my future husband "prince of God who loves Daddy God so much". Awww~ sweet. For sure, I dont wanna get married at my hometown church, perhaps kk gonna be perfect or Philippines or Gold coast? Hello Daddy God, humbly hoping that you hear me xD Thats all. Lol xD Thanks abba for the crazy and funny dream! XD

So... whatever it is, you know the best for me God. 사랑해요. ♥♥♥ :-)

Pray for one another ~ James 5: 16

Dear My Lovely God

Dear Daddy God,

I've been praying so hard, You are so close yet I feel so far. Why? why? why? 왜? 왜? 왜? 몰라... 훟!! I just need your tangible feedback maybe a nudge from an angel. Wooaaa... As if I can feel it. 하하! Yea, you know sort of thing~

To be honest, since I came back from Kuch, «see my previous blog» Life has been so uncertain, hard, full of gravel, challenging due to the all of sudden problems, spiritual walfare, spiritually tired, or maybe I am too sensitive?

Tell me why my Life is full with misery? Why others...? Why...? Why I need to face all the problems as I reach that place? why and why and why? Thats the famous word that I always throw to God. Hahaha... Dont you feel like wanna kiss me? Kiss me with your palm. Huh? huh? hahha!

I realized that My relationship with God start to... you know~ I know you dont know, so listen:: I think I love you, but the love is kinda almost fade lar God. Maybe... Yeaa... We can just be close friend instead of best friend, I msg you, you reply. You msg me, Let me think 1st whether should I reply you or not coz Your msg is almost the same like the previous one. So You please tell me, should I reply??? Since I missed everything I love after starting working life, I feel so alone in this world. Hardly to feel You lar God. Your msgs sound so old school to me, maybe some part of me giving up on You. I didnt mean it but eventually I did it. From time to time, I hardly see your msgs. You wanna know why? coz I switch off my other phone, the number you always contacted me. I know I am bad. It is because I dont wanna see Your msg, then cry and blame myself for being not the old me and blame You for being so kind to me. You understand me more than I know myself, but I dont wanna know all that coz its killing me inside! Slicing my heart slowly, its so painful like the pain that I've gone thru. Your encouragement is like a sword can make me feel more hurtful < that time lar>

If you wanna say:: family? I only can count my Lifefire family which I managed to join them 2 times only. That is the time that I actually just can release my stress however cant feel Him, my prayer cant reach lar. Can you imagine that? I cant feel Him, how sad is that, obviously a sinner to-be. I only can feel the people lar. Hehehe... Not only that, after I feel high a bit, there will be always thing make you down, ON THE DAY ITSELF. How sad~ Arghh.. Who cares? I care actually .

From time to time, I said to myself: Val, be strong, all the problems are just a piece of cake for God to handle all that. Its my mind saying that, not my heart. However I agree with my mind. Actually, one of the reason I am happie is because Friends of mine:: from Kuch n Miri are the close faith that actually make me feel excited with all things! Heard that they wanna come was the best thing ever! Even though we are not connected very much on that time but I make a promise to myself to be strong! Never let myself down. Seek ye 1st the kingdom of God.

Before the date come! 1st of Nov . Eh... No... 31st of Oct.. Yea.. I feel that all the stress burdened me, my mum msg me saying that I have been changed lar, I dont tell her my holiday lar, they wanna make soul mass lar, all the things lar that make me worry much! Why? why? why? why now? Part of me feel guilty for not able to attend soul mass for my late grandma. On that day itself, Feel like wanna tell Nick and Pat that I cant join them. Actually I did, in joking way saying it. Haha... But the verse "let the death bury itself you come follow me".

Thank you God! It was a relieve that You sent Your two precious prince and princess of God to rescue me! Perfect time! Your time is always perfect, perfect for everything! You make things possible! I still cant believe that my 5 days holiday approved as well!!! Epic interview session ever!! I believe that God is with me during interview!! Muahahaha!!! Journey to Kaingaran was cool and fruitful. God's grace and blessing. Thank God for making it possible especially with unplanned plan! Praise You.

"This God - how perfect are his deeds, how dependable his words! He is like a shield for all who seek his protection. The lord alone is God. God alone is our defence. This God is my strong refuge. He makes my pathway safe. He makes me sure-footed as a deer; he keeps me safe on the mountains. He trains me for battle, so that I can use the strongest bow." ~2 Samuel 22:29-35

Daddy God, You are epic and hilarious XD I love you. 사랑해요 ^ ^ ♥♥♥ （≧∇≦）

What on earth I am doing here?

Dear God, do you know how grateful I am to feel You in my life. 사랑해 ♥ ❤ ♥

Kuching trip was one of your beautiful and wonderful plan for me! It was full of fun and fruitful journey. You provide everything, You make things possible. BESIDES!! My journey was blessed with few wonderful friends whom you sent! which I adore them so so much!! Thank you God! For your great great LOVE.

Few weeks ago. To be precise! Early September! I've decided to send my resume to Kuching Factory! I click! and indeed! Sent! Yea, I know I am kinda insane~ Ha... Ha... Ha... Seriously I've never even thinking to work there! Like hell no! Hahahaha.. Its just I've ever strongly telling my fren that I aint gonna work there. Imagine! Flying to kuching is like "impossible!!!" I, myself cant believe it! Ridiculous man! Oh~ Nevermind, just give a try. No harm rite?

The next morning, friday. Tuttt.. Tuttt... «monotone» Phone call~ What!!! Interview in Kuch on 12 Sept?? You gotta be kidding me God! Trolol What is this? Prank call from heaven? Hmmm~ with a reluctant hand, I'll just say yes in the 1st place. Oh no!! Mom has turned to devil, she forbid me to go! At d end, Free!! Hahaha~ kidding mum. Love you mum ;p

So, I told Nick, senior Lifefire aka my good friend of Faith aka friend bergila-gila about my interview. And guess what!! In his message, he was happy excited for me!! Happy of course! :B Thanks for the warm welcome message Nick. Lol! Lifefire aura.. Understandable ^^ I was seriously worried about transportation, place to stay etc.. Gosh! God, You will provide rite? I believe in You. However, still worried. care not. Gosh!! I bought one way ticket so mum wont be very angry. Ahahhaha... Troublesome daughter is me! Forgive me Lord. As if I escape from house without mum fully permission some more. :D Rebel :D gonna tell my future grandchildren how extreme my lyfe was! HISTORY man! -Skip that part-

2nd time arrived airport all by "Myself"! Meow meow again! ;p Hey! I come by faith, and by sight also lar. Miahahaha... Thank you so much warrior of God! Nicholas Alvin George! Praise God for sending this warrior to help me to find my prince charming. God! You are great! Ahahaha... Thank you for the transportation which is a blessing from God to you and your familia Nick. With the pumpkin horse we ride, I finally reach the destination. However! I couldnt find my prince charming due to many procedures need to be done! "Working permit, labour fee etc!" wahahaha... What??? Why called me in the 1st place? If I know, I wont come~ Like serious. Hmm~ Sad giler beb! Feel like cinta terhalang. Went there without 100% permission then otw ada problem sumore~ God, You gotta be kidding me? Hehehe.. Kidding God. Love you. Haha...

Okay! Fruitful 10 days I can say lar!!! Awesome! All about God! How awesome is Our God!! Love you love you love you God!! Later i'll edit my few days there. No time now. Gtg! Wait la'er ;p God bless!

Question to Ponder

Question: How to be a good leader or future good leader oh? I wonder???

Share God's love thru your simple action «give a hand to stranger/ smile to people that u know,
elderly n everybody»? your words «eerr... cursing? Is that a good example??» Hahahha...
Treat everybody equally? «you handsome so I treat you supernice compare that not so handsome you??», prevent jealousy blinded you, well everybody has their own talent rite?? Am I?

Yalah.. I know some people has the desire to serve and not to be served. Excited la rite.

But please Dont treat me as if I dont exist, layan macam tamau layan but then di sannaa or wherever la, super friendly. Sometimes I feel sad but maybe they all have problemo as well rite, so I pun OPTIMISTIC la like si Elephant :-)

Question again: Is that How we layan God as well? When we feel we need Him then we brabis jadi superbaik but when the time we dont need Him, we layan tak layan la Him? Sadnya...

Dear God, there are many times I failed to hear you, but please forgive me dear God. I do really need you in life. Guide me to not fall into this temptation of human selfish place. To fall again and again is not my desire. What I really need is to rise from my fallen. I may not know what will happen in future but KnowinG GOD ALONE is the joy of my heart. Nothing can replace this happinnesss... Wooohhhooo... Thanks God! 사랑해!! 진짜 ❤

Journey to Manila was a BLESSING

It was by faith my dear. You know what?? Ok!!! The first thing before flight!! Only one guy will be following which initially suppose be two guy as they are so called bodyguard!! Gosh!!! One of my sister fren cant join us "guy". Alright thats fine, we can handle it. Three days before going, we did Devine Mercy for protection, guidance, weather, health and many more. It was Awesome!!! Me, mummy and both sisters joined even though Vannesssa was in KK during that time. Well, it is a basic preparation before Travel. Come before the Lord, offer our life to Him for His guidance and protection. Do trust in Him and He'll hear your prayer. 

On that day itself 2nd August, one of our friend called and said that she missed her flight from Sandakan!!! Then, her new flight gonna be ten minute before our flight!! Gosh!!! What can I say about it!!! Insane!!! At the eleventh hour!!! You gotta be kidding me!! She was the one who knew and arranged the transportation when we reached there as she has already settled with the tour city. Haha.. Funny is it?? I was worried indeed! We dont even know where is the hotel that we are going to stay. Only the name!! San Lorenzo!! Who the hell knew it?? Trolllll... Everybody was worried however there is a line that always sing in my mind "God will make a way when there is seems to be no way."

In the airport, i were google ing all the hotel near Makati, as my fren, Vicky suggested to shop at greenbelt in Makati. Thank God!! However, as i google, i couldnt find any hotel! Trolol... If people asked about our Destination, i'll just answer Makati, if they ask which part of Makati then i'll say Makati again, near greenbelt though. Nice answer yea.. Who the hell care. The moment that six of us waiting for were finally arrived!! Around 2:++pm, we arrived Clark, airport!! Yihooo... Finally baby!! Clark air is different from Kk, obviously. Lol.. Everybody was so excited! As we carried our luggage.. oh!!! Transportation man!! As Vicky and some of my friend told me that as I came out from the airport, there is a bus counter. Oh!! Thank God!!! We bought for six people, 400 peso/head. Done!! The moment we went out near the taxi driver, we saw a guy holding a paper with our friend name on it. Oh no!!! We bought the ticket already~ after we discussed about it, i went back to the bus counter asking if the tickets refundable, however, they said cant but can be used for coming bek to airport on Sunday. :'( Ohhh... while my sister went asking the guy with our fren named. Suddenly I felt someone pulled me from the counter¡¡¡¡ I thought he is a handsome however he is actually she, my own sister... Cehh... She said we just follow the bus, and she asked me to run toward the bus Asap as she explained to me about the guy told her that the name on that paper is from blablabla.. Cant be trusted. So we decided to follow the bus. The end.

Yeay!!! Entered the bus and sit for awhile. Gosh!!!! Where are the location of the bus is heading to?? I mean exact location, we knew Makati, but which part?? Near our hotel?? San Lorenzo?? Or what?? Oh no¡¡¡ By our faith, we surrendered everything to almighty decision, You guide us Lord. We offer up our journey to You, show us the path. Ok, rilax in the bus, long journey!!! Almost four hours!! Manila... JAM!! like crazy!! People here and there kept on honk to each other and the distance between the two buses equal to your wrist!! As if you can open the window and slap the next bus' passanger. Can you imagine¿¿ Near is it¿¿ Unbelievable yet true, sorry, this ismy first time going out from Malaysia "culture shocked" but not Sabah. ;-p. Pheeeewwwww... Long journey! I wanna go pee... However, the bus' toilet fragrant!! wow!!! #puke. So, I just endevour myself to stand. Baboy!! Wait k Val. Alrite, "Makati is here" one of the girl screamed. Oh... Finally!! I need to find toilet :-) The moment we went out from the bus~ Where are we????? FEel LOST!!!! FOREVER LOST!!! I mean for few second due to the highway we were standing. No bustop there!!! I mean Makati pit stop!!! Lol.. Luckily i know how to speak tagalog a bit! I learnt from the book. Then, we asked about Hotel nearby, overall, 5 stars hotel, out of our expectation dude! Then went to ascott Hotel, still couldnt find any. For twenty minutes looking around.for hotel but couldnt find. Hey!!!! I wanna pee..Feel like wanna explode¡ My oufit for that day totally wrong!! I know I do look gorgeous with mini skirt, however they said, for first day, it is better to look simple. Argghh... Whatever. Luckily stop near pizza huts just for the toilet. Phewww... Much more better!! :-) Praise God!! mum came out with a brilliant idea which was by asking the taxi driver "Raymund the good looking taxi driver and he is young" the 4stars hotel nearby, he brought us to full house hotel and the 2nd hotel was L&B suite due to lack of hotel that he knows... The funny thing here!! I bought the cheap pork bun which actually need to be microwaved!! However I was hungry and kept on munching it without seeing the label, then end up with puke all the food I ate previously. ;p LEARNT A LESSON!! 

Ok! Done!! Praise God for sending a good man to us even though syendee and litto shared front seat together. Troll! Raymund thank you!! You are good looking bald guy :-D The receiptionist man is a good and friendly man as well,.*He said that I am MAGANDA and my boyfriend will be lucky to have me "future boyfriend indeed" Lol!!! It is because I know how to deal the problem.with my manner and smile and many more. Enough Val!!! Hahahahahah.... TROLL.. Btw, we all were so lucky, God's plan was incredibly awesome :-D Thank God!! Yeay!!! The room is cozy as well!! Thank God!! We arrived there with our faith. He shows the way!!! God is awesome!!! All the time!!! Never lose HOPE!!! HE IS MY HOPE IN DESPERATION. THANK YOU JESUS!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! Even though the weather that night wasnt good however we managed to reach there safely. We still in a pink of health for the next morning. I love the hotel services!! I love everything there!! Plus tips we gave the "Galang's look kid".

2nd day!! Horreeyyy... After sleep very well last night, we continue our tour on the 2nd day!! ;p the moment we woke up around 8am. The weather outside looks gloomy. Oh no!!! Plan ruin??? We need to go out from the hotel room please. After a while, the weather turn ok. So, continue our journey to shopping complex!! Greenbelt, otw going to greenbelt, we asked all the security for guide, then infront the bank, we took jeepney!!! So cute! Wow... It is great!! We took photo inside jeepney. ;-) Best moment!! At last jeepney!! 8peso/head. We passed the triangle park Makati. Ayala road of course. Then we go Landmark as it is just next to Greenbelt4 ;-) We took our breakfast in Landmark mall. Gosh!!! The stuff inside are cheap!!! We did our shopping and shooting., it was enjoyable. Great time together, we just knew that inside greenhill, there was a chapel with every hour mass!! Wow.. Cool is it!! The building itself unique!! Then, we called Allen as it is emergency, the tour guide, due to we need to get out of that place and see other places, places of interest or another shopping complex. Wahahaa... Then allen told me that he'll send joenelle instead of himself, then the white hyundai, van shown up and wow!!! The handsome man came out to invite us to his van. Comfy van ;-) i did really shy to talk but still asked a lot of questions. Then, yea... We pass all Makati places, still remembered all the places we passed on the way to greenhill~ Hee... As you know, the big wind as the tail of typhoon still there, big wind!!! you can see the trees went here and there. He told us that the day before we came, there were a big wind near the seaside of Manila. Wow XD praise God that we all saved from the big wind and splash of water "small tsunami he said" We knew a lot about Manila in a short while, the monsoon, small natural disaster.

Thank God we all are still alive after that day~ Phewww... Love you Jesus #The Power of Tridum. Then, after half an hour in the van, we finally reached Greenhills. Another green after greenbelr! ;-) The moment we entered!!! Gosh!!! Cheap!!! I brought out my calculator, but wait!!! Money changer! We need to change USD to peso. Ok... Wait wait wait k Val and everybody. We changed $800 to peso for four of us to shop, the rate were around 4.32. High is it?? So lucky, as the rate increased from the previous day and it also increase compared money changer in Makati. I cant resist myself after devide the money to four of us!!! Thank you mum for the pocket money!!! Really love mummy!! For the 1st time to be the responsible person to lead the tour as in money, hotel, transport, next destination, and so on. Ok, for me, calculator always be my boyfriend, with me 27hours, as I need it so badly. All the clothes there were so cheap!!! Gosh, left and right, could not resist!! Hehe.. Bags, clothes, pants, shoes, bangle, necklace, pants, etc Goshhhh... 150, 200-500 peso were the standard range of prices! Fainted. Devide 13 k people if you wanna know Malaysian RM! The 1st thing i spotted was necklace!! Do you know how much i adore necklace!! Oh my!!! Adore shopping. So worldly! Well... After that we went to Seaside, near Mall of Asia!! Ferris Wheel ;p Awwww~ so much fun!!!

After finishing shopping, where the incident my mom and I lose in that big building~ Hmmppp... Hahahhaa... Funny though! Then, all of us went to Macapagal Seaside: Dampa where we had our luxurious fresh seafood  dinner. we pick the fresh item and they cook for us. So much fun! Enjoy our time there even though massive jam on the way back hotel. Tour guide talaga handsome! ;p

3rd day :) Continue our day with new tour guide, Allen. He brought us to Intramurous, China Town, Quiapo Church, 189 mall, sourvenier shop and lastly SM Megamall, Mall of Asia. ;) So much fun! Then, we manage to find baboy satay near our new hotel. ;p Yummy!!! Thank God for the great journey! God with all of us ;)

4rd day :) Breakfast in McD and yea :) Our last day before our flight at 4pm. We did shopping somemore on the way to the airport. We saw the cementry on the way back however couldn't stop for a while due raining. Gosh! Quite heaving rain! Though, we all were arrived KK safely on 6pm :) Thank God.

JOURNEY with THEM "LIFEFIRE'S LIFE" was AMAZING

Hello my friends!!! Brothers and Sisters in Christ whom I adore so much!! Omgee~ So formal this I feel!! I miss y’all!! This is My affirmation for all of you =) Now, I know the feeling!!! Leaving Uni life and Lifefire!! Gosh!! Punya sad and happy at the same time. Mixture feelings! Lifefire is the best! Sweet family ever!! My foundation of FAITH. I grow in Faith 100% i tell ya! ;)I don’t know how my future gonna look like but I believe that God has a wonderful  plan for me after this.

Can I ask for a prayer for my faith in future, as I pray for each any everyone of you. Hehehe… Sound so weird rite. Ahhh… All I need is support from you all, coz as a youngest member during you all punya era “Vonne is older than me also =p” I do really need it coz I feel that my life is just begun, working life. Wow… Sound so tough oh I feel.

 BACK TO 2011 =)

AFFIRMATION for my Sweet-sweet Lifefire Leaders and Members whom I love so much!! – if it is too long, see the alphabetic and direct go see your name =p-

Ambrose: Gege!!! I miss you!! Your bird smile!! He is a good guy ever!! Kind guy ever!! He is so kind to all his friends even toward His junior Beatrine!! Sweet Ambrose. But… Sometimes I feel that He is annoying!! Why??? (Daniel. Pat and Emman know this) The question is: Am I really annoying before this till he annoyed me back or is this because Daniel say something to Him??? Hahaha.. Kidding. I’ve always being so kind to him “always???” but he… but… haihh.. hahah, no, I am not, I know. Thank you gege for you funny jokes. Hey!!! I still remembered when we all pray rosary together and I was so surprised when you said about the God’s covenant. Praise God. Plus, you memorized the “pray for us” part which make me feel, wow!! God’s man! Thank you for your smile and Funny face “all the time”, you make me laugh a lot! LOL!! Thank you Ambrose gege! * Bird smile =)

Beatrine: I miss you so much dear, you really make me feel happy. Seeing you really make me happy, your smile make me smile too. Your concern toward me really make me happy. I do really appreciate our friendship. Hope can see you again and know how are you now. Hehehe… you are quite busy also rite. I understand dear! God bless you. Jesus loves you. Love ya! =)

Brenda: Too much to say about you! You are the 1^st person approached me during my 1^st gathering in lifefire roughly 3 years ago. You welcome me with your warm hug~ “Wow, she really hug me kuat-kuat” 1^st time in my life. She is so friendly, smiley, laughly, lovely all –ly is Brenda la.. She makes everybody happy to shalalala… She makes me feel the God’s love in her through her actions, every single word from her mouth is so encouraging and she is a sweet sista for me. I feel her love to everyone. She is good in action songs actions also. She is good in many things – sing, draw, creativity, laugh, etc.. She makes me feel that I kena sayang. Wow.. imagine, how great the feeling is, esp in UMS yang teda2 this.. hahaha… Glad to know you Brenda. I feel belong to the community, Lifefire, you always care for other, which is touched me the most. Till now, you are still the same, you always inspired me. So happy get to know you, by spending my quality time with you is more than enough, I am satisfied. I love you Brend!!! *Warm hugs* =)

Daniel: From bad tempered guy to funny guy “in a way lar, can I say SS??” hahahaha… Kidding!! Thank you for helping me drive my car to church and many more. Actually the reason I have become playful a.k.a annoying is due to your funny/not funny jokes sometimes.. In order to make you and Emman and Ambrose stop talking is by annoyed you all because I don’t have anything to say or defend myself other than that. Miahahaha... What you feel?? Annoyed again?? TROLOLOL. Actually, you did really help me!! Self-confident increased after communicate with you and Emmanuel and Ambrose especially when we all go eat “Damai” before lifeline, hang out with you guys! Awesome!! Really change me from akward à playful/annoyed/happy/full of expression girl. Thank you Daniel gege, emman gege and ambrose gege <I am younger than 3 of you okay>. Hahahahahaha… Many memories! Dis you remembered that we all sent the tattoo girl went back to Sepangar and she said “God bless you”!! Fulamak… Cayalah… hahha… with Patricia and Ivy that time. Then, I remembered we all went 3D, mcD and sunrise! My 1^st time staying out “I mean no sleep”! Crazy yet fun! Explore whole places! Yo bro!! Thanks =)

Elvianna: Spontaneous and cool! Taboo that day!!! Sweet and lovely, so kind ni you elvi, you gave me encouragement and many more. It really great to have your support, as a good friend to me this. Well, we are friend, always =)

Ester: Great sister. Supportive sister who always encourage and motivate me in many ways, I feel best lar. She is sweet la, I just know her few months like that la, but I feel her warm welcome, sincere heart “last time punya description”. You smile, I pun smile lar kan ester. Miahahaha… She has a good heart, kind and yea… Gila kpop, since Uni till now =p.. High 5 ^^ See you when I wanna see you! Trololol =)

Jasmine: Sweet friend and funny. So friendly bah you, you like to smile only kan. I just know that we are in same age!!! You grad d kan!! So muda oh you grad d, which was last year =p =)

Jill: Funny!!! I like your sharing la, so encouraging and best!! Last time rite, seeing you yang funny2 really make me feel happy when I go gathering time d which the venue still at sport complex that. Miahahaha… =)

Jon2: Cool bro, I still remembered your long hair! Hahaha… Your voice is power lar.. Your sharing also one of the best. I enjoy it this! Yeayy.. Happy =)

Juliana Jay: Happy Go lucky sista. Even though the time we get to know each other so short, but I feel your warm welcome which make me smile. I see love love love in you. Miahaha…. The reason why we get so close till now is the love love love in you that. Miahahaha,,, funny oh I feel =p

Nicholas: You are bit weird la at first Nick, bald lagi the 1^st time I met you. Hahaha.. Then after know you, crazy and kind brother to me lar who always give advice, your sharing always the best coz many lawak jenaka and panglipur lara. LOL. We all talk about GA sumore rite “do you still remember?”, rosary and many more. We did share a lot of thing, especially about God! Fuyoohh.. Best lar! Yea.. You drive us to church also, pemandu berhemah, which I kenot tahan sometimes, coz I like fast lar “sometimes” Sometimes??? =) Miahahaha,… Lot of best memory la last time, when you muda-muda, we all hang out and all lar. Btw, your encouragement, support and advice are the best! God really love you. When I shared with you, I feel the presence of God, God is the centered of our sharing and He is the HIGHLIGHT. As always! So cool. I miss that moment, talked a lot. So great la to talk about Him kan, He is Great. Thanks for your kindness, sharing and everything. You are a kind, sweet brother =)

Patricia: Sweet friend, we stay in the same room, during appealing for hotel. Really great sharing and praying moment with you in the room we stayed that.. and many more, going church together =) Sharing maring session, we talked a lot as well. Great journey with you! Especially the time we stay in that room, we shared a lot =p 2^nd Kpop frenzy =)

Sharon: Great friends, who always be there for me to hear my problems, share and questioning me with many questions. Yea.. it really helpful. I am so grateful that I meet someone like you. The time I really need help, you always there for me even though you are busy with anything lar. I like to share with you, spending a day with you gonna be the best time ever. I do really appreciate the time we spent together!! I see God in you. Thank you for being so kind, your smile make me smile also =) You smile, I smile. I miss you dear. Hope can see you again? Hehehe… I have a good feeling about it. Ngehngehngeh…*Hugs =)

Stephanie Lim: Sweet and cute. Your smile so cute lar “baby face” and I still remembered the time you play guitar! So cool and cute. So happy knowing you. =)

Stephanie Chan: Sweet friend. Hahaha… You always anxious aout many things, how are you now? Hehehe.. You are funny sometimes and you talk a lot =)

Suh: I like the way you handle all the problems, your talent in playing keyboard sumore. you are so cool! The coolest girl in Lifefire! Your knowledge about Church teaching, etc.. Wow… You are like a living CCC to me lar, if I have any questions or doubt, I’ll ask you. Hehehe… You’ll answer it plus extra info sumore. Wow!! At the same time, I like the lovey dovey Suh and Brenda lar that.. I’ve never know that you are sweet and lovey dovey coz you are very serious person and know a lot about many things “Bible teaching, I like your sharing!! We all shared a lot! Like a lot. You still remember your lambs? You are the shepherd in our group” hahahha... Miss you so much *Hugs =)

I LOVE LIFEFIRE SO MUCH!! I FEEL SO HAPPY TO KNOW EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU. YOU, YOU AND YOU ARE THE BLESSING FROM GOD TO ME, YOU ALL HAS SHOWN ME HOW GREAT GOD IS THROUGH EVERY ACTION THAT YOU ALL HAVE DONE. WITHOUT YOU ALL, I DON’T THINK THAT I’LL SAY YES TO THIS MINISTRY. IT REALLY AWESOME TO JOURNEY WITH YOU ALL ESPECIALLY ALL THE LEADERS, “GOD’S SPECIAL INSTRUMENT OF LOVE”. SO FAR, I THINK I MADE IT ;) THANK YOU FOR THE TANGIBLE LOVE EVERYBODY!! LOVE Y’ALL. ♥ ♥ ♥ God bless y’all. 


Lotsa Loves ♥ ♥ ♥,


Valerie Litta Sista, 2011. can? ;p

My Lifefire Campus Ministry = My Love

My Lifefire My Family

So fast time flies!!! Tomorrow gonna be the last day for me to meet you all. So sad ni i feel, at the same time yea, happy coz i am finishing soon ;-) I am gonna miss you all!!!


For Lifefire, I can do anything!! You want me to climb the mount Singai for the joy that we’ll have in lifefire? Can.. Btw, where is mount Singai? Hahahaha… Ok, joking.

AFFIRMATION FOR EVERYBODY in lifefire “DUE TO KINDA FREE!!! VIVA EARLY JULY!! BULI-BULI LIKE THAT!! MAU MARAH ALREADY.. But, God is in me, self-control. Marah kejap jalar… Normal what =p 


"Many grammatical error this, i hantam-hantam type only, TESL girls~ can you all close one eye for me??" --> With blink-blink eyes! LOL 

Audrey: Sweet girl, with a humble heart and so cheer. You always make me feel happy when you are around. I like your voice and your sharing, so encouraging oh.. You are strong girl and cute, as always. So happy go lucky! I’m going to miss you Ode!! ER 2012 make us closer this. Yea.. Jessie’s house that.. hahahha…


Clare: your gentleness! You are so funny sometimes and yea.. Always help like Conny. Without both of u and Maureen, the place would not be as cleaned as it is.. You've never complained, so faithful to lifefire oh u! Wow!! You always be a great fren. Sweet friend like you memang best la. Thanks for making me feel happy all the time with your smile. You effort to speak English make me happie =) Buli bah kalo ko.

Conny: you are funny! Hahahahahgagahahaha... Good helper. Always be there to help. Rajin la i can say. Happy to know you. You make me smile and laugh! P/s: Conny, i tidak ambil hati la pasal my name in faith in action should be the 1st one kan as you promised me kan, tapi... on that which i found out that my name not the 1st one. How la this. I'm not saying that you are... Tapi.. Bukan.. Tapi... Hahagaha... 'i just wanna make u nebes bah this as usual.' Hahaha.. Ur nebesness make me laugh! keep up the lucuness in you! Lol

Danison: Always be a good friend and good brother, your passion toward photography memang wow lar. Really happy to know you, 4 years kan, I ever saw you since matrix lagi that. High 5 matrix friend. You ever help me drive my car also, we all ramai2 gila-gila last time somore – pat, dan, nick. Haha… You are a good brother la.


Deb: Great experience with you lar even "5 of us together" The other one of coz God lar. Yea.. Journey with you guys *3 of u* really make me feel wow.. It gonna be tough. But i forgot about God for few months i guess. Then i realized, Hey! Nothing is impossible! God is with us rite! Altogether, 5 of us. Hahaha... Thank you God for the blessing and grace that you have given us. I'll been praying for your new generation to serve in Lifefire and you answered my prayer. I do believe not only me praying for that :-) Thank you God for this wonderful family. Thank you for debbie and Yvonne. I still remembered the 1st we met was Island trip where you said you didnt bring extra shirt, and we talked about the Handsome om putih next to our seat, and they were sunbathing. Miahahaha... So much fun la the time we spent together =) You are a good planner, you are a good leader, you are so concern in every aspects that you'll take. I feel God's love in your Meow meow smile =) *Hugs

Emman: Yoh Emman gege! Sorry for the late top up most of times. Heee... Lazy me wanna top up oh.. Maybe next time i'll ask the next tresurer to buy top up dg earlier! Maybe that time, you have already retired from keeping the phone with you. Hehe... Yea.. I wanna affirm you for you kindness to me, patient with my mumbling *sometimes* and yea.. You are a good brother to me.

Man. You care for everybody. You always do a lot of things like keep the ypc key, top up phone, msg everybody, play guitar, arrange bus, and yea.. God knows all that. Thanks for being so faithful to God! I am so proud to say to God that you are my good brother. In times of bussiness, u just say yes to God. Wow.. Great la! Really happy to journey with you as one of the leader. You have shown to me that "In God, nothing is impossible" God is so awesome isn't it. He always provides. And journey with you all "4 of us" really has strengthen my faith and believe that God always provide and He'll make a way and He hears out prayers and He'll never abandon His children and He always be there to support us and encourage each and everyone of us. I believe in Him. I guess four of us growth super drastically coz we handled a lot of things without complaining *maybe sometimes* God is our King. Man! Be the man of God :-) Thank you for everything emmanuel. Hehehehe...

Gaby: sweet girl. 1^st time knowing her, “why this girl got a lot of questions, sometimes she’ll show her awkward face and dissatisfied of the answers given” Read CCC… Hahahaha… Really hard to get to know her at the 1st time. By the times flies, she change. She has growth spiritually. For the time being, I see her grow in FAith, yea,… Very obvious lar. Very happy for her! Your friendly smile, u r so friendly lar…  Praise God. She talks a lot. Yea.. She always make the car environment full with sound yea! Normally if we were in the car, i'll just say “Lets just switch off the radio which is one of distraction of our sharing-maring” as before the weather check session" Hahaha.. Having a good time talking with you in and outside the car! As you smile, your eyes smile too :-) You always bring friends to lifefire gathering! Which is i am really proud of you! *hugs*

Geraldine: happiest girl ever. Adakah patut u asked me to bring camera that day, games day... Hahahha... Yea... Happy go lucky girl, your laugh your greeting “anehaseyo”! Gonna miss it dear. U are indeed funny girl with a good heart, you feel what others feel. I do believe that :-) U are a great friend to journey with. You make people around you happy and smile. You memang funny since the 1st time i met you and cute lar, polite girl. You always make the environment full with joy. Saying YES to Lifefire is equal to saying YES to God. So sweet.. *Hugs

Jesse: Bah! hahaha... Thanks for helping me drive the time i dont feel like driving "lazy to drive". You are a good brother to me who always help me in time i need help, yea... Hang out together to release stress. Yea.. I'm a little bit scared at first that u'll say no to lIfefire this due to last time u r sick and can’t make it last time. But, i saw your grow in faith!!! Super arh.. As i journey indirectly la with you, i see your faith toward God and, i, become witness la.. Hahaha.. Ss. I am so proud of you when you said you are serving in Lifefire -in the car while search for parking. U choose lifefire this! Oh... Sweet.. Jess! You bring laughter to everybody with ur "bah" Happy to know you! You memang determine on doing something this which make me feel yea.. Good idea! God loves you dude! P/s: after outing when you said 1 movie best and u explained a lot, tau-tau!!! You haven’t watched yet @.@ It was so Funny!

Joener- You still remember after camp!! Yeaa.. You posted the daily reading in lifefire Group, wow.. I wondered.. This kids really love to read God’s word. Not bad, not bad… And you are so open! Clean! When you said u wanna talk bath 1st -ER- superfunny and owez SS i think. Sporting. Concern of others, all of us. when sepa2 not yet share their day kan, U remember this all. So good lar u!!  You are funny as well.. Always make people laugh esp weather check time. I've never know that you are happy go lucky type! I realized that during our camp with bea and derek la. Yg moment yang u ada blur2 lagi that. Hahahaa... Your hair nice sudah tu. Your habit to rearrange your hair kan "obviously" cukup handsome already that, like korean. Eph2:10. LOl. You make me feel appreciate ni n my presence in lifefire is so meaningful. You make me feel like a special big sista in Lifefire esp during ER that... Astaga... Your face bah! During last day!! haha... Louisa noticed that as well. But you still rawk la joe! Pheww... Happy feeling. Yea.. I know, you enjoy all the food as well kan :) as tetap dan berpencen as ajk makanan, do miss me k!!! Esp my beef patties plus seaweed! Lol!! You all lucky la i can say that. Joe, you are sweet lil brother to me, ohhh.... Some more you take courage to step up, even though you speak BM, i see your effort to speak English as well which i feel sweet this, you've never feel malu lar. Swwweeetttt fav dongsaeng ya.

Linda: Sweet girl, you like to manja-manja with people this i feel which is so cute la. Hehehe... Miahahha... I am gonna miss your voice "which quite unique lar" no one has same voice as you. Hahahhaa.... "Obviously bah"

Lyliana: Sweet and cute and funny and cool lita sista! Really fun to have you around! W ecan bergila-gila. Thank you for your help the egg mayo sandwich “ which many people puji us” miahahaha… we all are good in doing sandwiches only, with Val and your friend’s help also rite. HAIR thingy is the thing which make us closer rite? hahahha.. Lyl!! Gimme high 5 with your hair terbang here and there k =p. Miahahhaa… *Hugs

Maureen Alma: Super thank you to Daddy God, I met this wonderful daughter who is so kind to me, offer me a room to stay “last year after Lifefire camp”. I am a parasit "FYI". Hahahha... God has been so awesome to me! Maureen has a good heart to serve God’s people. She always there for her friends, well, I am her roommate, of course I know. It’s like somehow seing myself in her “last few years ago”. Aheemmm.. Yea... I mean, i am so shy2 cat la previously, previous leaders know that. =) Maureen is a good friend who always be there for you, taking care of you, even though she always tease me and always "gotcha" me =,='' I am gonna miss you dear~ The time we spent together seems not enough to me. To have a sweet, kind hearted roomate like you is so 1 in a million~ hehehe... You are a great helper, you always give your time to help Lifefire, I see all that. =) Really appreciate for all the wonderful thing happen to me, all the things we shared. Sharing is caring =) Bless others as God has bless you =) Bask in His love! *Hugs

Maureen Candy: I don't think that I can be close with you - My thought last time. I just don't know that we are going to very close this.. Last time, you are not as friendly as before, i still remember the moment yang we become close was the time i hold your DSLR and took photo with it, i feel so close with the DSLR, and the owner of coz.. You still remembered LF Gathering in Bundu Tuhan with Derek and Bea, that was the time we can talk and bergila-gila! I miss you and they all Suh lar that moment! Woooaaa... Now punya Maureen is so sweet ni, always smile, last time, very hard to see you smile. =p Thank you for being so kind, nice and friendly to me. I feel the warm welcome when you smile to me ni, i am just so happy! You gila-gila also this "rupanya" miahahhaa.... *Hugs

Vonne! You are cool! Cool leader! You know what... Before our camp with Derek and Bea, 4 of us only, I don’t know how am I going to interact with this champion debater.. hahaha… After get to know each other, especially after camp, you are actually really train me to do last min work! *prepare for working life! Excellent* i can handle it! God is with me! Even me now! Planning things last min! Sometimes! #Contagious la you Vonne! Hahaha... Cool lar princess of God! You memang princess of God yang so cool! Your presence indirectly built my confidence up to 92% which before this might be 81%. You make me feel i can do it especially the slides about Easter Triduum! Your encouragement really cool as well! Yea… You make me tetap and berpencen with FOOD. I did enjoy it so much!! I get to know very well where the locations of best bakery are. I love pastry! I've never met people like you "i mean princess of God"! You make me feel that i am precious and special in God's eyes, you make me feel that :-) Your smile "unchangeable pose" make me feel that way actually! I am just so happy la i can say! The moment we all together is the best moment i feel, especially the time only you i and in the car, where that day my car got heart attack bah. hehe.. I'm gonna miss you princess of God dear, really fun to journey with you coz i've nothing to worry about and i know everything is in control. I love you Vonne sista! God loves you dear. *Hugs*

Wen: I wanna affirm your cooking talent! Wow!! Cool man! Man is a real good cook! Hahaha... Joe also buli tahan la "maybe". When you talk about cook, wow!! Org Kuch hebat la. Caya la! You are a good friend, can see how close you are with Joe, and you are hillarious lar. Wen, one more thing, your ashley! i know you are guitarist as well! Can see your passion in guitar while playing ashley! Cool. Yea..You are cool! Rock the world for God!

Yvette: you have grown a lot esp your faith to God. My 1st impression of you is " oh no, it gonna be hard for me to approach her/ try to know her coz she is a quite type girl n x open -reflect of myself previously- but after get to know her, she is a sweet girl who is huggable and lovely and kind. I am gonna miss you vette, so so much. She is so sweet, when she smile to me, the sincerity in her and love sampai bah.. I feel this! I see God's love is in her. She makes me feel welcome again in Lifefire! After my penat lelah handle this and that.. Her smile is like an affirmation from God to me. Wow.. syok oh.. And as you say YES, well done my dear, you take courage. I feel overwhelm. *Hugs

TQ to Bea and Derek and Jinny as well =) TQ for the great support. God bless y'all.

FYI: Before Lifefire camp 2012, Lifefire was having Financial Problem, However, God provides everything!!! Miguel the generous man of God donate His blessing which amount 4 digits. Praise God. Thank you so much. Besides, St.Simon congregation donated a lot also, Lifeline's help plus people yang generously donate la and support us in prayer. Thank you so much everybody for your kindness and charity. All we can do is pray for them, especially for those yang kna sponsored, *Hint hint. hahhaha... God bless them to share the blessing to all of us this. How great is our GOD!!! Amazing God.  

" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding "- Proverb 3:5

P/s: When you all miss me, do pray for me k. Miahaha... Maybe during that time i do really miss y'all and miss miss miss miss. As we are called to pray always, let the spirit leads us. Miahahha... :) Let's start our 1st step to pray for each and every one in Lifefire 1st. Then you'll realize how great is God, hearing your prayer for everybody and PRAYER itself is so wonderful and powerful! I did pray a lot for this ministry when only 4 of us serving. And now, i am so amazed by God. See the growth of Lifefire and Lifefire's members to leaders. Life changes! Wow!!! God is so AMAZING. I am the most HAPPIEST PERSON NOW. This is what i can describe la, seeing all of you Grow In FAITH AND Become closer to each other. So touch oh! I love You all!!!

Lotsa Loves ♥ ♥ ♥

Valerie Big Sista, 2012

I Love Tutti Fruitti

Tutti fruitti is my Love!!! I am gonna miss it so much!!! I moment i eat  it with my best friend!!! I love love love love!!! Every time going 1B!!! Never forget about it!! The topping that I prefered would be a lot of grapes coz i am Grapes fanatic!! Most despise thing happened, these few weeks, i get upset due to no grapes, they said no stock!! Impossible! @.@ hahhaha...

I love You Daddy God

Thank you for Everything.
Thank you for Your cross Lord.
Thank you for never abandon me.
Thank you  for loving me so much.
Thank you for make me feel happy.
Thank you for today, I am still alive.
Thank you for friendship that I have now.
Thank you for my Lifefire Campus Ministry.
Thank you for always guiding me to the right path.
I am just wanna say that I love you so much Daddy.

I love you so much Daddy God.


#DEVINE MERCY MODE