Living with HOPE

With God's grace, this year gonna be a great year. Fruitful year-to-be. As His covenant he made, I am redeeming this year with His approval? Ahahhaa... Last year end was amazing! He has never stopped to surprised me by granted my prayer "100%". Pray with faith, hope, love, sincerity and humble. He will wink ;) 

Thank You God for the graces and blessings You has granted me last year. I give You thanks with my kindness. Amen.

Manila 2013. Not again?

Let me start my journey before flew to Manila.

Gosh! 9 days before that, prayer mode was switched on "me and mummy". 3 hail Mary Novena. Thanks mama Mary for hearing our prayer. This prayer is super powerful! Mama Mary truly intercede for our journey as it went very smooth. Try this out people, you will find the prayer is really awesome.

In Manila! Makati! Tagaytay! awesome! Protected and safe and enjoyable. THOUSAND THANKS MAMA MARY. LOVE YOU SO MUCH ♥♥♥

Tagaytay! Wonderful place ever. You can see the taal volcano surrounded by the lake. Daebak!

Riding horse! Not poney k. Lol

With little brother xD we paid cheap for 2 horses

And and and!!!!! Riding HORSE in TAGAYTAY of course XD WOAAAAA !!! ;)

Ferris weel for the 2nd time in my life, both in Philippines. I love ferris wheel!

I love zipline too! Most adventurous outdoor activity that I ever did in Tagaytay, Philipine.

As you can see, all of us in the photo  above together with our tour guide: info from diane XD thanks! However, I love Universal Studio Singapore more! Well, the best fun park I would say, so far.

Manila! ChinaTown, Binondo! Shopping heaven and food heaven. Gosh! I love Binondo aka Chinatown Manila ;) I am absolutely going this place again 2014. Ooh, next year! I can't wait to shop and eat again! Woaa, I am going nuts I would like to say. Best Shopping ever! 

Makati! Is where we stayed. My mum and I managed to attend feast of st francis asisi celebration in St Peter and Paul in Makati! Five minutes walk from our Hotel XD Blessed!

Amazed by the church as my first eucharist mass celebration there. I've been to many Manila churches before, which was last year. Big, pretty, amazed, unique and wow! I just love it! 2014. I am going to celebrate eucharist in different church everyday? I am going search for the mass services in every church then ;)

Selfish, greed, materialistic side of me

As a woman, who dont like dresses, blouses, skirts, pants, jewelleries, handbags, perfume, sandals, belts purses, hairbands, nail polish and all girly stuff?! Gosh! Sale! Affordable price! Girls, can you resist from entering the korean fashion shop? God, have mercy on me. My eyes are full of stars now. Greed. Yummy. I cant imagine myself drawning in all the stuffs. I am going to be the happiest girl in the world. Shopaholic? Not yet that level? I hope so. XDD

I am worst in financial. I am bad, very bad. Shopping is my hobby especially window shopping with the girls xDD Sometimes, it is very hard for me to control myself from not looking at those pretty blouses. Tempting! Lord, have mercy on this sinner.

I realized that my closet is now overloaded with variety latest blouses? Kinda. Gosh, every 3/4 month I need to eliminate few outdated clothes to give away. Not only that, handbags on my couch now are more than 10. Urghh. Precaution, Pride is coming. Since last year my clothes, jewelleries and handbags collections are mostly from over the sea, out of kk collection. Gosh, my mum bought a lot for us! I love you mum ♥♥♥ She is pampering her daughters with nice clothes, from her vacay : China, Indon, Singapore, KL. We even went Manila for shopping last year because all the blouses and all stuffs are pretty plus reasonable. Next month going to Manila shopping again. Gosh. I just cant wait! Wee~ Greed and proud are in me. YOLO. I am poses by sins. Help me.

I love to buy latest stuff "with conditions: under my budget and reasonable", I am willingly to share too or to give away too all the clothes if I can't fit anymore or outdated fashion. Will I give my favourite clothes to others? Selfish side of me. XDD

I love my family

We struggle and put a lot of afford to be a happy family. Tolerate, understanding, sow love, care for each other, advices, screams, quarrel, console and many more have taken control of all the happy moment together as family. It is pain for all of us, we shared. Let me be the love of my family, use me and all of us oh Lord. God hears our prayers. I believe that God hears my mum's prayer, my prayer might not as sincere as hers. I believe each of my family members pray for a happy family. I was touched hearing my little brother's birthday wish yesterday: "I wish our family will be happy family like right now". Lord, have mercy on us and hear us.

Yesterday yoyo's birthday

My birthday

With baby sister and lil brother

With siblings USS faye's birthday

P/s: Photos share showing that how much I love the moment we all together as a happy family. Strive to be one happy family. Lord, hear us.

We pray hard for my dad too. May God touch his life, fill him with love, patient, understanding, peace, joy, self control, and many more. Amen

Mum and dad my love♥♥♥

Lord, have Your way in me.

Who love their life? I love my life ;). To be able to breath clean air is more than enough dear Lord. Do I want more? Oh yeah! I want more if You provide more and more and more. Have mercy on me oh Lord.

Greed might sometimes conquer my head but I try my best not too affected by it. Greed is my biggest weakness, tendency to want more has taken control of my life without realising it. Pathetic me. But You have make me realise that all in the greed in me make me losing self control. Everything has fallen apart! Discontent with life, sigh taken control and jealousy plays hide and clap! Wanting more and more make me feel awful! Urghh...

I love you Lord, sincerely love you. But something is blocking me, blocking me from my own feeling. LOL

Lord, will You allow me to follow the signboard toward GREED Street? How about WALL Street? Wall banging my head? Have Your way in me, Lord.

St. Aiden died on 31 august

Saturday memorials of the Blessed Virgin Mary

On Saturdays in Ordinary Time when there is no obligatory memorial, an optional memorial of the Blessed Virgin Mary is allowed. The memorial is a remembrance of the maternal example and discipleship of the Blessed Virgin Mary who, strengthened by faith and hope, on that great Saturday on which Our Lord lay in the tomb, was the only one of the disciples to hold vigil in expectation of the Lord s resurrection; it is a prelude and introduction to the celebration of Sunday, the weekly memorial of the Resurrection of Christ; and it is a sign that the Virgin Mary is continuously present and operative in the life of the Church .

St Aidan (- 651)

He was born in Ireland and became a monk of Iona. When King Oswald of Northumbria asked for help in converting his kingdom, Aidan was sent there and established his monastery on the island of Lindisfarne. Assisted by King Oswald and by his successor King Oswy, he preached the Gospel, founded churches and monasteries, and freed slaves throughout the kingdom. He died at Bamburgh in Northumberland in 651. He is venerated for his simplicity and poverty, for his love of prayer and the scriptures, and for his care of the sick and the poor. With him are remembered all the holy abbots and bishops, teachers, and missionaries who made Lindisfarne a cradle of English Christianity.

31 August SAINT RAYMUND NONNATUS(1204-1240) 

St. Raymund Nonnatus was born in Catalonia, in the year 1204, and was descended of a gentleman's family of a small fortune. In his childhood he seemed to find pleasure only in his devotions and serious duties. His father perceiving in him an inclination to a religious state, took him from school, and sent him to take care of a farm which he had in the country. Raymund readily obeyed, and, in order to enjoy the opportunity of holy solitude, kept the sheep himself, and spent his time in the mountains and forests in holy meditation and prayer. Some time after, he joined the new Order of Our Lady of Mercy for the redemption of captives, and was admitted to his profession at Barcelona by the holy founder, St. Peter Nolasco. Within two or three years after his profession, he was sent into Barbary with a considerable sum of money, where he purchased, at Algiers, the liberty of a great number of slaves. When all this treasure was exhausted, he gave himself up as a hostage for the ransom of certain others. This magnanimous sacrifice served only to exasperate the Mohammedans, who treated him with uncommon barbarity, till, fearing lest if he died in their hands they should lose the ransom which was to be paid for the slaves for whom he remained a hostage, they gave orders that he should be treated with more humanity. Hereupon he was permitted to go abroad about the streets, which liberty he made use of to comfort and encourage the Christians in their chains, and he converted and baptized some Mohammedans. For this the governor condemned him to be put to death by thrusting a stake into the body, but his punishment was commuted, and he underwent a cruel bastinado. This torment did not daunt his courage. So long as he saw souls in danger of perishing eternally, he thought he had yet done nothing. St. Raymund had no more money to employ in releasing poor captives, and to speak to a Mohammedan upon the subject of religion was death. He could, however, still exert his endeavors, with hopes of some success, or of dying a martyr of charity. He therefore resumed his former method of instructing and exhorting both the Christians and the infidels. The governor, who was enraged, ordered our Saint to be barbarously tortured and imprisoned till his ransom was brought by some religious men of his Order, who were sent with it by St. Peter. Upon his return to Spain, he was nominated cardinal by Pope Gregory IX., and the Pope, being desirous to have so holy a man about his person, called him to Rome. The Saint obeyed, but went no further than Cardona, when he was seized with a violent fever, which proved mortal. He died on the 31st of August, in the year 1240, the thirty-seventh of his age. Lives of the Saints, by Alban Butler, Benziger Bros. ed. [1894]
By Laudate

Bring God Everywhere

God is my refuge and provider. He really provide when He wants me to do 'mission'. I just knew it when He calls and preparing task for me. There are always a good sign with a good intention. To say NO will be the last choice that I will choose because I know that He will not give something that is out of my ability. In God I find Happiness and Joy. Not only that, when I bring God in someone's life, something good absolutely happened; they feel the love, joy, happiness, peace, calm, understanding, wisdom, self control and support as well. I am blessed to be affirmed by few friends whom I journey with and walk with before. I am now identify more and more gifts that God has granted me. I LOVE YOU GOD. 我爱你 ♥♥♥ 신,사랑해.

Recently, I attended friend's wedding in Miri. I decided to go even though many "things" are trying to stop me, I just knew; I even almost missed my flight. That was one of my surprise surprise mission. To sow love in my friend's wedding and to experience such a detail wedding were awesome! Helping prepared the sandwiches, mop the floor, carried stuff and washing stuffs made my day great. I was doing it with love, joy, happiness, privilege, grateful and many more. To be able to help was my biggest happiness. As I remembered, Sharon did a lot of works too, interior designer, carried stuffs, cut fruits and sunquick maker xD I did enjoyed every single moment I spent there. Such a best experience!

My highlight of Beatrine's wedding was: to be able to lead night prayer together with sharon and beatrine; plus the mother who slept earlier. To bring people in a deep night prayer is equal to bring someone's heart near to God and put their TRUST to God especially when wedding is just the next day. Now: I pray that Beatrine and husband will be one of the family that near to God's heart. Amen.

Mission: Me

My mission is more to one on one? Yea. While doing it alone, I have to admit it. Approach someone with God's lead and Holy Spirit's guide, I am still standing still today. Pheww... Without God, I am nothing.

Meeting many people who has cross my path is not a coincidence, God's plan, they are one of the precious gift in my life. Realizing it or not, I've learned a lot throughout the journey. Honesty, prayer mode, each other, mission, vision, etc.

God believes in me. He always show me the right things to do. I am GLAD. Thank you God. Journey to Miri will start tomorrow. I might not know what will happen tomorrow; tomorrow is mystery. I pray that everything will be alright, even though it might slightly crack. Lord, let me be the trouble solver in Your Name, Jesus, lead my way I pray. Amen

My path, my decision

Continue master is my aim in life now, however, waiting for the perfect time is crucial. Money is not an issue but I made it as an issue previously, because I dont feel right? Actually, October am going Manila again with family, family bonding. So, I decided to not apply, which I wish it is the right choice I make. After have a deep thought, I realized that study in country is no longer became my desire. I love traveling, why dont I travel and study at the same time? New place, new environment and new country. Study abroad! Oh yes! that is what God has planned for me? Discerning. I love study Lord.

To be honest, to be away from family now is not a right time. I am needed in here, many things happened, outta control. Besides, I love travelling,  shopping, food, and kk. Hahahha... I cant live in lacking? Hahha... just another lame issue actually.

Dear God, 

You are my guide. Please lead my path. If I am away from the path You had prepared, let not give up on me, send anyone to guide me. I like to rebel sometimes. Holy spirit, guide me. Amen.

Sincerely, 

Daughter.

Captivating vs I Kissed Dating Goodbye

I am reading these two books since last few months, yea! I am outdated. I found that I fall love these two books, the authors are; Joshua Harris and John&Staci Eldredge. Even though I haven't finished reading yet, I am actually enjoying read it for my bedtime story. Yea. Once, I finished it, what next? I mean I dont have any books to read. I love to read book but it is very hard for me to buy my own, I rather borrow from my friends than buy. Nah.. These two books aren't mine, my friend. ;)

CAPTIVATING: book that unveiling the mystery of Woman's Soul. I am 100% recommended to all girls out there to read this book because I find it very interesting! A special nudge from angels of God I would like to say. To be a Godly Woman is not as easy as everyone thought. Sacrifices needed? Actions needed? Lets ponder upon all that. "Your heart matters more than anything else in all creations. The desires you had as a little girl and the longings you still feel as a woman- they are telling you of the life God created you to live. He offers to come now as the Herp of your story to rescue your heart and release you to live as a fully alive and feminine woman. A woman who is trully captivating." (John&Stasi, 2005) Every chapter captives me with the fact what will I, every woman will feel towards fairy tales and many more. I found encouragement, uplifting, affirmations, confidence, healing, forgiveness, empowering, waiting, blessing, loved, freedom and many more after half way reading CAPTIVATING.

Do you know that "God's version of flowers and choclates and candlelight dinner comes in the form of sunsets and falling stars, moonlight on lakes and cricket symphonies; warm wind, swaying trees, lush gardens and fierce devotion. This romancing is immensely personal" (John&Stasi, 2005) God knows what takes my breath away, He is my romantic God ever. Thank you God, you make me feel wonderful, precious and special. All the times, we blame God for abandoned us, but actually we are the one who has abandoned him. He shows us many special treat in our life but we tend to close our heart to Him. "But yea, we must choose to open our heart again so that we might hear his whispers, receive his kisses. It may not come the way we thought or perhaps even thought we desired it to." (John&Staci, 2005).

To be honest, I've personally experienced God's love for me, it so wonderful, awesome, loved, blessed, grace and special. He gives me a new hope, of being LOVE. "I felt a little silly in asking, for I knew the truth- that God had already proven his love for me. He had sent his only Son, Jesus, to die for me (John 3:16). He is an extravagant, abundant lover and he loves to reveal his heart to us again and again" (John&Stasi, 2005). Read Captivating will eventually transform you become a genuine you and free woman with the feminine HEART.

I KISSED DATING GOODBYE: I highly recommended this book to man and woman of God out there. To be honest, As I gone through the 1st part, I personally feel a bit "outside" because this book started with college guys' life and I dont feel really connected. Perhaps I am not really into this type of book. However, there was an urge for me to continue read it before I sleep "bedtime story" Yea! I found it interesting! For me, as a woman, guard my heart, dear Lord. Be the keeper of my heart. #winks

In Proverbs 4:23 "Above all else, guard your heart." How should we do this? First, picture guarding your heart as if your heart were a criminal tied in a chair who would like to break free and knock you over the head. In other words, protect yourself from your heart's sinfulness. Keep a wary eye on your heart, knowing that it can do you damage if it is not carefully watched (Joshua, 2003). Not only that, the beauty of purity: "Purity doesn't happen by accident; it requires obedience to God. But this obedience is not burdensome or overbearing. If we desire purity, we have to fight for it. Only the pure may be vessels of His Holy Spirit." (Joshua, 2003)

Practice makes perfect-or perfectly imperfect. The love we practice in dating not only shows the world Christ's love; it also prepares us for our future relationships. As we relate to others today, we form patterns that we'll take with us into our marriages. For this reason, we must practice not only sincere love but also commitment-based love (Joshua, 2003). I love this book! It make me realize many things that I've never known and all the stories really encourage me, my struggles and many more. This book is a refreshment for my soul. Cant wait to finish it xD

Perhaps I've never date before? Do I? so I feel that this book and me are not really connected. But, it is a good sources for me, and all readers out there to discover something new or common thing. Question!! *raise hand* "Ummpphh... if that person like you but you dont like him and y'all go out, that is not date right? Hangout!? Am I right? For the sake of friend what? Ahahaha" Personally, about dating: not yet the right time? Hahha... Okay, for me, I surrender my calling and devotion to God, sacred life? Marriage? Nun? Waiting patiently for God's perfect time and not mine absolutely. Well, the ultimate purpose of life gonna be, I wanna be Godly woman first, then to be a Saint? Hee xD Lets us pray for each other so we can be Saint in this new era. Love God with our whole heart "Full blast". ♥♥♥

Lord, we humbly bow down and on our knees asking for Your mercy. May we never turn away from Your radiance of LOVE. Let the fire in our heart to desire live for You flame, till the end of the day. May our love for You, fuel a lifelong, passionate pursuit of righteousness. Dear God, heavenly father, hear us Your children on earth. We love You so much. 신,사랑해! ♥♥♥